One year of hell

So..that's it. It's over. Was it a good one? No. It had good moments. But it had pretty bad ones too. Will the next be better? No one can say. Everybody keeps saing that it can only get better from now on, that there will be a light at the end of the tunnel, but I'm not convinced. I'll see. What else can I do. The only thing I am shure about is that this life is a long trip, sometimes a good one, sometimes a bad one. Let's handle it like this!

Sometimes you hit the ground quite hard....

...and so I did. For the second time this year. It's already November, the year has nealy passed and I have to start again. Again. From zero on. Shure I do what I should do, get a job, get a new place to live, but it seems pretty strange at the moment. But now I feel defeat, I'm sad, I'm lonely. Well, at least that's what a game of Tarot told me weeks ago. But I have to keep going, even if I have not much energie left, I have to get everthing in order again. But well, everything has it's purpose, sometimes you need time to see the meaning behind things, sometimes you need time to get it all sorted out. Then new things can happen, and one thing's for shure...they will happen. I hope everything will be good, new, happy, without all the sorrows and problems of the past. And there is this possibility that it will. That way or another...the only thing you have to do is...you better hold on tight!

My travelling friend

I got a new friend today, to be exact a travelling friend. It's a project from a school here in Darmstadt where studends made little "travelling friends" which were given to travelling people to get as much around as possible. So mine will travel with me to burning man...where I try to pass him to someone else...I'm thinking about Karen ;-)cause he looks like that he wants to visit Singapore! Here's a picture of me and him:

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A Poi break?

For quite a couple of weeks I don't enjoy Poi the way it was before, so I thought I should probably take a break from it. Why? Hmmm, good question! Well, maybe it's just a period of time that will past when I will have a break...that's what I really hope. Also I changed a bit. Like I was tould that some people gone to Birte at Feuerwelt and asked her why I didn't play Firepoi there because they like how I'm playing...don't understand me wrong, I feel very honored by that, it's really nice to hear when someone likes the ting you're doing, but on the other hand it puts a strange pressure on me. I always have some thoughts somewhere in my head that I have to play beautiful to cope with those expectations. And that's strange. When I started playing poi I always did it for me, and only for me. Maybe I have to find that relaxed attitude again. Then it might work again without thinking "man, that was a really crappy piece of poi-playing" Then I might find the door to the place again that the poi-people call "the flow". I'll work on that. But I'm looking forward to do a video with Karen in SF, and also I will play fire at burning man...nobody knows me there (ok, not nobody) so I can play just for me...let's see if I'll find the flow again! Another strange thing happened also related to poi...a guy talked to me at camp tipsy, he's the one making the glowballs and he wants me to test the new prototypes...nice, I really felt honored then. So I'll do that as well and I'll post my opinion about it here, but at the moment I really think they have the potential to be better than the Ogg-Poi from Flowtoys!

The firefairy

I made some pictures of a burning can...and discovered that... Doesn't that look like some kind of firefairy with big wings? Am I sounding like a hippie? I think it looks like that!

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Berlin madness

Berlin a mad city full of mad people, and I might be a part of it. Here are some impressions of the town, just a few, far to less to get a picture of it. But these are the pictures I made the last 4 days, and since I got nothing more intersting to write about... ;-)

Yes, there are dragons in Berlin...as you can clearly see I'm very afraid!
I wish we had such playgrounds when I was a child!

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Aramgeddon-mood near the Mauerpark

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..but if you turn around a nice sundown at the park

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A painting in the entrance of a house

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Lena making soapbubbles

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A little girl with a far to big Hoop...but she did her best

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A old industrial site where I worked at the weekend

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Jamaican ginger beer can contact

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Ok...this post made no sense at all.... ;-)

The spaghetti incident

Yesterday I've been to Annikas farewell-party, she's going away for quite a while-We all, gonna miss you, have a great time and take care!!! After some tasty wine and when we run out of crackers we found some spaghetti, which can be eaten as some kind of crackers as well...but also used as a perfect toy...so here is what happened:

The non standart use of italian pasta:

1.Use it as a straw (after a few attempts we found out that it isn't working)

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2.Use it as a mustache (Yes, works if you have a superflexible upper lip)

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3.Use it as a balancing toy (Works too, you only have to have a buff scarf do attach them to)

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4.Use them as ear jewelery (Uhhh...how exqusit!)

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5.Soak them in wine and eat them (Tasty, we tryed red wine, but white might do well as well)

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So if anyone else has some ideas what to do with pasta other then cooking and eating...let me know!